Wow. I can't even remeber the last time i was on here. It feels good to be back. =) It's almost 4 am. I'm tired but i cant sleep. Thankfully i dont work tomorrow. Ive been with someone for about a year now and some where along the way i feel like ive lost myself. Im not the same anymore. Im not completly dissapointed with the person ive become but i am unhappy with the person ive lost; myself. From now on every decsion i make will be based on whats best for me and only me. Im done with caring about what others are gonna say or think. It all starts today. I just need to tie up some loose ends first.

okay so 2day i start fasting
it will only be 4 one week exactly
cuz i dont fit into my prom dress
as easily as i use 2.

then i will go bak 2 eating normally
and try looseing weight the healthy way

but i have a question.....
how much weight do u think i will loose within a week?????

She's Vicious
She's not one 2 play games with
You wifed her
Then left her
Lead her 2 believe
And played her for a fool
Now she's Spiteful
Thinking of a riteful way
2 make u repay

i still miss him
: (

i hate it that i cant get him out of my head
it seems that when ever i have free time
my mind just wonders about him
i fantasize about him
i make up stories about him in my brain
i just dont know what 2 do anymore

im use 2 just hooking up
with another guy
and just forget about the other
cuz thats just what happens every time

but this time its different
and i know im not in love
i know its just a stupid crush
but still that doesnt change
the way i feel
its my fucking feelings!
why cant i control them

you know maybe
its just a stupid phase
it happens with every
stupid guy i end up getting close 2

this is why
i just stay away from them all
its so much drama,
when your with them

i guess it just wasnt meant 2 be
and we were both better off this way
im actually kind of glad
that things ended the way they did
it could of been a lot worse

like i always say
"AVOID THE DRAMA"